Here comes the rain....
So, a lot has happened in the past...ten days. lol
First off, I am the new Miss Rancho San Diego 2009! Hey Oh!
(pictures here http://www.flickr.com/photos/dream_is_a_
Second, I'm eternally proud of Annie Get Your Gun. My sister, and Sam pulled that show off like crazy. With all the things against them, i'm so impressed. And my brother was phenomenal. Three months ago, he wouldn't sing along in the car...now he's a feature in a musical. Who would have thought?
Know what else no one would have thought? That a boy like him would be interested in a girl like me... nothing is happening right now, but it looks promising. Like, this is legit. This is really happening..to me! I've screwed up my life for the past ten months or so and here he is still wanting to talk to me, and take me to lunch, and invite me over for a movie night... it's exciting and fun.
School... ok well, i dropped my math class, and my theater class? I'm failing it. I know i am. I'm scared to go back... honestly. My acting class is usually fun. Jason and I make the best of it... and i'm not even really upset with my teacher for having me redo my monologue. She's right, there's something i could change and i want to perfect it.
My heart goes out to my sister...
I'm starting Accutane all over again. Yay blood work...
Oma and Opa are going to Holland on Friday. I would give anything in the world to go with them. Even my crown...My uncle is dying, and i want to go kiss his cheek once more before he goes.
Alright, ending with lyrics...
Please don't mind what I'm trying to say cause I'm, I'm being honest
When I tell you that you
You're part of the reason I'm so set on the rest of my life
Being a part of you
You tell me what you think about being open,
About being honest with yourself
Cause things will never be the same.
So I guess I'll see you, see you around
I'm spinning, whoa I'm falling down
Now you know why I'm begging you to stay
Well don't waste time getting to the point, cause I'm, I'm patiently waiting
For your next phone call, your next excuse for losing sleep again
Tell me what you think about being open,
About being honest with yourself
- Location:My office room, not at school...
- Music:Amazing Mayzie - Seussical
But can you comment with your First and Middle name?
kthxbye
- Location:where am i always?
- Music:From End to End ~ Relient K
I write you visions of my summer.
It was the best I ever had.
There were choruses and sing-alongs,
And not a spoken feeling.
Of knowing that right now is all that matters.
All the nights we stayed up talking
And listening to 80's songs;
Quoting lines from all those movies that we love.
It still brings a smile to my face.
I guess when it comes down to it...
Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up:
These are the best days of our lives.
The only thing that matters
Is just following your heart
And eventually you'll finally get it right.
Breaking into hotel swimming pools,
And wreaking havoc on our world.
Hanging out at truck stops just to pass the time.
The black top's singing me to sleep.
Lighting fireworks in parking lots,
Illuminate the blackest nights.
Cherry cokes under this moonlight summer sky.
2015 riverside, it's time to say, "goodbye."
Get on the bus, it's time to go.
Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up:
These are the best days of our lives.
The only thing that matters
Is just following your heart,
And eventually you'll finally get it right.
In This Diary ~ Ataris
- Music:Fine Fine Line ~Avenue Q
then, Jason and i stayed up til 3 this morning. we were talking about tons of stuff. Mostly how we've become so integrated into each others' lives. it's so cool. i love that boy more than i'll ever be able to verbalize. I'm so IN LOVE with him, it's amazing.
then, today i found a cowboy. He is gay. His name is Hank. I'll post a picture of him later.
And thomas. jeeze, that boy. i don't even know where ot start with him. i love him with all my heart. and i hate seeing him stuck on this emotional roller-coaster. i hate it, i hate that i can't fix it, i hate that even when i do listen while he talks or whatever, i feel like i'm not getting anywhere. i mean, i feel like my words are so insufficient. i wish i had a magic answer. but i like that he trusts me. i love that he'll call me just to vent. i love that he knows i'm there whenever wherever.
old friends are cool. friends who you thought had walked out of your life. friends who you cherished memories of, but though that's all you'd ever have. it's cool.
So WoVEn did incredibly in Canada. i'm so proud of each and every one of them. I'm prouder than i thought i would be. but at the same time, i hate that i wasn't there. I hate that i'm not part of the choir i deserve to be in. Don't get me wrong, i love FanFare so so much. All of them are special to me, and being in it with Thomas, Wendy, Claire, Ian, David... so many more. I love being the assistant conductor (that's an indescribable gift) but i still long everyday to be in WoVEn. I wish with all my heart that i was challenged, that i was growing as singer, that i had the companionship of those 15 women...
senoir activities... blech.
AP gov practice test...blech
- Location:couch
- Music:Scrubs
- Location:Sunny San Diego
- Music:birds outside
I don't get it... i don't know why you won't let me be your best friend. I tried to stick by you though this all (at least, i think i did) but you don't want me. You want people who don't know that you're the wrong one. You don't want to hear the tough-love, you wants the "wow, he's a jerk, don't listen to them". sorry, but i'm not going to give that to you. I miss who you used to be, i miss the best friend i once had, i miss so many things about last year. I wish i had it all back...
but for the record, I forgive you.
Mood: 
- Location:The confines of my mind
- Music:Diary of Jane Accoustic (tee-hee)
Cookies are good with coffee.
Disney Channel has gone downhill since i was a kid.
I'm not a kid anymore... weird.
I'm sad there's no Balthy's House tonight.
I want to be famous, very soon.
I have 2 auditions to prepare for.
I'm excited for the 2 auditions I have.
Zack and Cody is semi-entertaining.
I need to stop biting my nails.
Prom is soon, yay.
graduation is soon, yay-ish.
I'm bored.
Blockbuster hasn't called me about my job yet.
I'm done.
So... I ditched today, but not for the sake of ditch day. I needed a mental break; an emotional vacation.
I woke up at 8:30, cleaned house and went to lunch with mom. Then I picked up my brother from school (which is fun because his friends like my car) and went dress shopping (not with my brother, he went home).
I did end up going to school for theater class. I had a scene to do and wasn't going to ditch out on Darrel. We totally rocked the scene, too.
It's weird that that's probably the last scene for class that i'll ever do on that stage. Where have the last four years gone? I can't believe it's almost over. WHHS has been my home for so long, my safe place, my sanctuary. And soon i won't belong there anymore. There's going to be DramaKids who i don't know. I'm going to go to shows and not know any of the backstage stuff, i'm going to watch choir concerts and not know the songs... how am i supposed to function? I'm not going to know what to do with myself.
I already don't know what to do with myself. I have very few friends, like... 2. Only one at school, and while they mean the world to me, i need a girl-friend. I need someone to watch chickflicks with, i need someone to vent to, i need someone to 'aw' over cute stuff with me. I love those boys with all my heart and would die without either of them, but still... it's killing me. Every girl at school has decided to either a) not be my friend any more or b) side with the girl who isn't speaking to me. I don't get it. And i know i have a couple other girl-friends, but they're not at school, they have their own lives. I don't want to find a new group of friends now because i'm almost done here and the effort would be wasted... gah, i'm so stuck.
So i guess i was supposed to do airbands today even though i told ASB i wasn't... w/e. they're dumb.
I can't deal with abandonment issues when they aren't my own.
ah well. I suppose i'll get over it eventually. it's just gonna suck getting there.
Oh, this is a cool video btw.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K2cYWfq--N
Lonely- Location:At home... where else?
- Music:One Feather Tail of Miss Gertrude McFuzz ~ Seussical
I supposed to practice my scene with Darrel, but i can't get a hold of him... i don't know if it'll work out if he doesn't call me back.
my brother got Navy Sea Cadet of the Year today. It was impressive. But it meant that my butt was out of bed and in the car at 7:00. that's too early to be alive. and it was cold and windy at the base...but one of the official officers asked me to take pictures of the event. that was cool. they're gonna put them on the web site. i'm excited.
Speaking of pictures, i took senior pictures of Cassie, Jen and Rachel the other day. i was so proud of myself. I need to give them the CDs though. i probly do it at school... if anyone else wants them done let me know.
so now... i'm sitting here. typing. cold. bored.
such is my life...
- Location:office
- Music:A Lovely Night ~ R&H Cinderella
Hola livejournal world... it's Angela. i lost my old password and made a new LJ. does anyone even do LJ anymore? i do... but i'm kinda old school. w/e. i'll have random rants, pictures, song lyrics, lots of stuff...
read if you wanna, comment if you wanna, care if you wanna.
- Location:Couch
- Music:Scrubs
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